FANGIRL

Hi! 안녕하세요! You guys should know that I love B.A.P [비에이피] (Best. Absolute. Perfect) as stated above ↑. If you guys don't know who they are, google them! :P So, I'm gonna fangirl about them :D

I love B.A.P so much bet you guys don't know. *Faints* Especially Zelo and Daehyun. When I listen to their songs, I keep want to cry. BECAUSE DAEHYUN'S VOICE SO CHARISMATIC AND ZELO'S RAP IS SO GOOD. They are like so PERFECT. LIKE SO YOUNG AND TALENTED.

I swear, DaeHyun has that face where you see it, you will fall in love with it. He really has the visuals. Hoho. Like handsome only. I guess he's like really attractive and charming stuff like that. The perfect guy sia. That time I didn't really notice Daehyun that much. Until I keep looking at him, as in when he performs live or in music videos.

Zelo, on the other hand, is a cute boy. :) He has a baby face like to the extent that he has the number 1 baby face in the kpop bands. And I was pretty intrigued by him. And boy, I was so damn mesmerised by your pink hair. (When they performed Power.)

This was screen captured xD sorry ><

As a fan, we obviously search up on their profiles. AND GUESS WHAT. ZELO HAS THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS ME. ♥ YEAH. BE JELLY PEOPLE. MUAHAHAHA. AND HE'S LIKE WHAT. ONLY 16 THIS YEAR. YOUNG OR WHAT?

I really wish I can at least see them once. Just ONCE. It will make my life a happier one. Or maybe I should go for their concert. Even better.

Words can't express my love for them. Not only Zelo and Daehyun, but the whole group. B.A.P. Zelo, Dae Hyun, Jong Up, Yong Guk, Him Chan and Young Jae. ♥ You will always be my number 1 bias. You will always be my best, absolute, perfect kpop boyband group. 사랑해 ♥♥

P.S I want to marry Zelo. LOL. He is my husband! 내 남편! ㅋㅋ

Goodbye! 안녕계세요! xxxxx

Marshmallow coated cereal

I guess I'm going to put up some recipes that I make myself as a snack :) This is my first one, and it's my very own one! So here goes nothing! :)

Ingredients:

Cereal (Any type will do! I'm using the milo balls for now)
Marshmallows (Not too big! Because it will puff up when you microwave it!)

Steps:

1. "Tear" up the marshmallow into smaller pieces. Then spread them out evenly, especially the bottom.

2. Microwave it! Stop until you see the marshmallow puffs up and then shrink back. WARNING: DO NOT MICROWAVE IT FOR TOO LONG OR IT WILL BECOME CHARRED!

And you're done! 2 easy steps to prepare a little snack. :) This is a little unevenly spread out. HAHA. I'm sorry. :( The marshmallow will later harden up upon cooling and everything becomes one whole chunk of cereal, sticking together. HEHE. But it will still taste nice! ;) Hope you guys will like it :D

Tune in for more next time! Bye! xo

My pet

Hey guys! :D

In case you all didn't know, I have pets and they are fighting fishes! HAHA
I have a very deep love for animals, especially dogs. And I can't have a dog because my grandmother doesn't like it. :( Saying it's all so furry, smelly and troublesome etc. Damn. :(

So one day, my dad asked me through the phone, "Are you interested in fighting fish?" And I went, "Yes!" HAHA

It started with only three. But now, BOOMZ. 10 FIGHTING FISHES. Not to mention 2 died. (I don't know what's the reason behind their deaths :( The reason might probably be the water.)
I was shocked by the number of breeds there were of fighting fishes. Like marble, metallic, crown tail, half moon (MY FAVOURITE. BECAUSE IT HAS BEAUTIFUL FINS AND TAIL. Top 2nd from left :D) and etc etc!

So now I kinda take care of the fishes only by cleaning up their tanks. But it's not that easy! And I'll definitely lose a little weight after changing the water for them, which makes me really happy ^^ HEHE.
I think the fun part is to catch them up with MY BARE HANDS. They will wiggle in your hand and it's body is so silky like that! LOL. I SOUND LIKE A PERV. HAHAHA!

Stay tune for more next time ;) Goodbye readers! :)

A.D.O.W.F (Awesome Day Out With Friends) #1 - Pool

So today, after a verrrrrrryy loooooong time, I FINALLY PLAYED POOL OMG SO HAPPY YOU KNOW!! Went with Grace, Sok Leng, Jia Hong, Bing Lun and Shi Xuan. :) Keep wanting to plan but end up not planning. HAHA. Then after an hour or so, Nina came and I was surprised! Hehe. :3 And my skills improved :D Thanks to my mentors, Jia Hong and Sok Leng~ HAHA. 师傅!

AND I WAS LIKE DAMN TAIKO(?) CAN. SEE THE BLACK BALL?! ITS WAS SUPPOSED TO GO IN LAST BUT LOOK WHAT HAPPENED HERE. SKILL LEVEL: 1,000,000,000 LOLOL

I had a lot of fun! It's like after the exams so I obviously had to reward myself with some fun right? ^^ I enjoyed myself and this is a precious memory to me. ;) I really hope we can maybe go play more~ Hehe. I think I just got myself addicted to pool. :x Whooops. Hehe.

It's getting late already~ Goodnight and goodbye! x

Never good enough

So I was reading a book and this was what I saw.

And I thought: "This is how I actually think about myself every single day." Which girl is not afraid of being fat or being ugly?

Whenever I look at my reflection, I think to myself, "Why am I so fat?", "Ewww. My thighs, arms and stomach so flabby." and "I'm so damn ugly." And people keep saying, "Where got sia? You so skinny already. You fat then I what sia?" Sigh. I just think damn lowly of myself luh. I just can't bring myself to say positive things to myself when I know that there are prettier and skinnier girls out there. I'm never good enough for anyone.

What's worse, society judges. It's like you don't fit in? Nobody wants to be your friend. Who doesn't judge? But in the end, who are we to judge? Some people judge people without reflecting on themselves first. That, it really pisses me off.

*Rant alert* SO YOU THINK YOU BETTER THAN THEM LAH? THEN NO EVIDENCE PROVE. STUPIAK ARH YOU. SAY PEOPLE THEN YOU'RE NOT ANY BETTER. LAME SIA. AT LEAST PROVE YOURSELF YOU BETTER OR SOMETHING LAH.

Being a girl is real damn hard. Avoiding good food, skipping meals, extreme exercising, having the fear of gaining weight. Overreacting over a small pimple. And many other reasons. (Because there's really too many.)

One more thing, I envy guys. SO MUCH. YOU GUYS EVERYTIME SO SKINNY. KEEP WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT BUT CAN'T. I WANT THAT KIND OF BODY THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I EAT, ALSO WON'T GAIN WEIGHT ONE. AND YOU ALL ALWAYS EAT SO MUCH SOMEMORE.
HAHAHA. Okay luh. I'll stop here. Bye. xx

"Be yourself" or not?

Many say to be yourself so that people like you for who you are. But many people also might not like you because of some actions you did to them. And you were being yourself. So the thing is, are we supposed to change ourselves for the better? Or just continue being yourself?

Me, being a person who treasures friendship (like a lot), I personally feel that I should change myself for the better.

I have a history of real bad attitude. So I've lost many friends which of course, made me quite depressed. I cried myself to sleep, cut myself and etc. (Note to haters: I'm not trying to attention seek here.) And so I was pretty lonely, during my lower sec years. And I was bullied. For my looks and my attitude. It sucked big time. And I was VERY paranoid. Constantly asking, "Do you hate me?" And people found me a nuisance.

So it struck me. It's time for a change. I was constantly trying to change myself so that the people around me would not dislike me. I had a really hard time changing, I must say. I don't really know why either. But so far, I think I have made a little improvement in my attitude. I mean, people still dislike some of the actions I do to them. I'm actually still changing myself. And I'm still very paranoid. Of my friends disliking me.

Nobody's perfect. We have to improve our flaws so that we can be better right? Sometimes, my insecurities just get the better of me.

Results

Woah. It has been way too long since I last blogged. Been busy studying for the exams and then was a little lazy to blog. HAHA. Cause I didn't really have anything to blog about. :/

So, the EOYs results are out and it really didn't meet my expectations. Gaaahh. I guess sometimes I'm really too damn lazy to study. Hate it when that happens.

But at least I improved some of my subjects particularly chinese and a math.
I COULDN'T BELIEVE I GOT A B3 FOR MY CHINESE OMG. I failed so badly the last time. And I improved so much ^_^ hehe.

AND I ACTUALLY GOT A B4 FOR A MATH. WTH RIGHT?! From C5 to B4. Well, its quite an improvement right? Hehe. I was 1 more mark to getting B3. JUST 1 MORE MARK. ALWAYS LIKE THAT. OH GOD WHY.

Well, lesson learnt: I shouldn't be so lazy. I should really start studying hard. And also studying smart. After all, O levels are NEXT YEAR. OMG. SCARY. Thinking about it just stresses me out :(

Till then. xoxo

Exams have ended! YAY

FINALLY. THE MOMENT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR. THE END OF YEAR EXAMINATIONS HAVE FINALLY ENDED!!! 시험이 끝났어요!! WOOOHOOO ↖(^▽^)↗ TIME TO PARTEHH!! HEH HEH. Feel so free! FREEDOM IS MINE NOW! MUHAHAHA! :D

That moment when the examinations are over and you don't know what to do with your life anymore.

You know that feeling? I do. It's like I reach home and usually think "I need to mug" but no! Instead, I will think to myself "What should I do now?" HAHA. Like literally no life anymore. Hahaha.
It's getting late already. So I guess it ends here. Goodnight! xx

P.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARIZAH!! 생일축하해요!! ㅋㅋㅋ ♥ Enjoy being 15 yeah? ;)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERIS!  Hehe :3

Examinations in progress

Time really flies and the examinations has already started. So far, I've already taken 5 papers :) That means, there's only 4 more papers to go! :D heh. But, honestly, I SCREWED UP EVERY SINGLE PAPER. Apart from E Math ^^ phew. I really can't afford to screw up the other papers >< Well, I guess I have no one to blame but myself because I didn't study much. I expected myself to study for the whole month but ended up only studying the last 2 weeks. Damn. I really should stop being so lazy and procrastinate. Hate myself for being this way. Oh well. Can't rewind time anymore. I guess I have to hope for a miracle to happen that all goes well for my examinations. :) Good luck everybody! We can survive and do this! :D Gambatte! 화이팅! ;) xoxo ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAFIZAH!

HEY SHAFIZAH!! HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!! :D ENJOY BEING 15 OKAY? :P AND MAY YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!

Sorry for that time (oh yes girl, you know what I'm talking about) the recent one and other times when I was.. a little mean and offensive. Sometimes I really just want to start a conversation with you guys so I just said some crap that make you guys hurt. How stupid and ignorant of me. I'm truly sorry for my past actions. And I won't repeat them. I pinky promise :)

It really didn't come to my mind that you guys will be so disturbed by it. I'm really starting to question myself every single day. And now, I will think before I act. And I hope that these little quarrels won't drift our friendship further, but has brought it closer.

ANYWAYS, HOPE YOU ENJOYED THE LUNCH @ SEOUL GARDEN WITH BAHJAH, FARIZAH, LETITIA, HAZIQ, CLARENCE AND ME! :D It's a memory I will never forget -because of an egg ;)-
I love you ♥ 사랑해 ♥ xoxo

Tired

I'm so tired. So tired of every single thing. Tired of hiding away from my crush. Tired of studying. Tired of deprived sleep. Tired of being so tired.

Firstly, about my crush. I always have that feeling to tell him that I like him. But at the same time, i'm really afraid of being rejected. (Because it isn't the first. It has been many times.) And every single time without fail, my crush would give false hopes. I really hate it when it is just temporary. It's a dream i've always been waiting to come true.

Secondly, there really isn't much time for me to study everyday. Thanks to my procrastination and laziness. And it's about 18 more days. And I haven't really started to seriously revise.

Thirdly, thanks to the piles of homework that never stops decreasing, i have to sleep at midnight. And wake up as early as 5:45am in the morning. And there's really barely any time for me to revise.
I'm just so tired of everything. Maybe i'm a little too stressed up and everything right now. I wouldn't be so worried and yeah. I hope I will settle down and everything after a while.

Goodnight! xx

Stressed

It's exactly 3 weeks to the End of Year Examinations. I REALLY FEEL SO STRESSED. I wanted to cry so that I could feel better. Everything is just so.. IDK. Like there's so many damn things to study. I know next year it'll be worse. So I gotta buck up now. Maybe i'm setting my expectations too high or something. Maybe that's the reason why I feel so stressed. Or maybe because everyone's so competitive. That's society. I should really be hardworking, stop being so lazy and procrastinating already huh? I WILL DO MY BEST TO LIVE UP TO MY EXPECTATIONS :D HAHAHAHA

Reality

Ah damn. Holidays are over. :( Reality starts again tomorrow. Kind of happy that I can see my friends and I can control my diet but kind of worried cause this means that exams are much closer now. And i've been slacking so much during the one week holiday! So unproductive. :( keep procrastinating and so lazy. Gotta change this attitude >:( YES! HAHA.

People nowadays

Hey guys! :D

So recently, I heard that my friend kenna Stomped. And guess what reason for being Stomped? HE RAN IN THE RAIN. That's it. Really cannot stand that Stomper. Have you got really nothing better to do? Seriously -.- don't say me okay. But I think everyone will agree me on this that Stomping my friend just for running under the rain is pretty lame. I mean. Of course we should be adventurous and explore new things right? Sometimes we might be a little crazy but hey, we only live once. YOLO! Sure we would try out stuffs that we have never done.

Oh well. Nothing can be done anyway. That's all from me today :) Toodles!

Being a "detective"

Hi guys!

So, I have been attending this Advanced Elective Module (AEM) course since yesterday, which is "Application of Science in Forensics". It's really interesting actually, like learning all the cool stuffs like Crime Scene Investigation(CSI) and how we look for evidences and things like that. But it's so tedious because it starts from 8am-5pm. EVERYDAY. Until Friday. *sigh* I hope I can go on. HAHA. And there's a test for it. *LIKE OMG* And we also have to do a presentation on a case study. And the worst thing is, it will be recorded T.T

Theory wise, honestly, I got no idea what the lecturer is talking about. Is so.. DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND. Because mostly it's more of Biology, all the DNA and RNA stuff and I'm a Physics student, which is the majority of the class. But, kinda really happy to gain this knowledge cause at least I'm a little exposed to the Biology world. So I won't feel so ignorant in front of my Biology friends :P

Everyone looks forward to practical. Because, well, we are students. We obviously prefer to do hands-on activities rather than doing theory for like the whole 8 hours right? We will probably bore to death. But the practical yesterday wasn't really interesting as we had did it before several times already. Yes, I'm referring to titration. But the burette looked different from what we have been using in our school. AND THE LABORATORY IS AIR-CONDITIONED :O LOVE the equipements and the air-conditioned lab :D

Today we did chromatography. Had a shark's meat as a fish sample. And we were suppose to determine what kind of proteins was present in the shark's meat. We used 200 voltage to pass through that gel thingie(dont really know what's that called) and the dye that had 10 chemicals inside and it's really costly. Merely 50ml of it costs $700! The dye separated into 10 colours and it was very pretty :>

Sorry for the lengthy post :( see ya! :D

Hi :)

Hello people!

Honestly speaking, I'm not a person who really blogs a lot. I've tried. And this is the third time I'm trying to blog. And update it frequently. I just usually don't know what to say you know? Like. It's really boring. Like my posts. Oh well.

For people who don't know me. Let me informally introduce myself. I am Sabrina. Just a teenage girl. I wanna blog cause I think maybe it will be kind of fun^^. I hope my blogging will not bore you guys. Hahaha.